By: Charles Strahan
When I look into your eyes
my world just melts away.
The things I know evaporate
and I watch you take their place.
I’m standing at the crossroads
of what is and what could be
trying to find the line
between what’s real and make believe.
When I look into your eyes
I feel your head against my chest.
I feel your fingers down arms
and your lips upon my neck.
And as we lie together
I can feel our hearts connect
as we close our eyes and soon shall find
a long and peaceful rest.
When I look into your eyes
I’m having dinner with your mother.
I’m talking music with your sister
and watching football with your brother.
And when I’m with your father
I’m never feeling antsy
because I know he won’t reject me
because I’m already his family.
When I look into your eyes
I must surely be insane.
I want to see your everything,
all the pleasure, all the pain.
I want to bring you laughter.
I want to wipe away your tears.
I want to make you comfortable.
I want to squash all of your fears.
I want to see you walk the aisle.
I want for us to share a name.
And what’s craziest of all
Is that I think you want the same!
But when you close your eyes
and I’m brought back to here and now,
you’re standing here before me
in a sparkling wedding gown.
Your husband stands beside you
with his hand around your waist.
You both thank me for coming,
a smile stretched across your face.
As much as I would like to try
to selfishly object
and justify a fantasy
of a life that we both have left,
There’s no more room for ‘what could be’.
The truth is what this is.
And though I’d like to call you mine
I know that you are his.
I force a smile and shake his hand
And wish you best of luck.
I thank you for the invitation
and say I have to duck.
You wrap your arms around me
As you give me your goodbye
I feel your warmth encompass me
as I’m trying not to cry.
I know that this is for the best.
It should come as no surprise.
But I still see what we could be
when I look into your eyes.